Blogging from friend's itouch!! Recently i'm feeling really down... For no good reason and i dont think it's cause of pms :( i look at you i want you so badly......... I dont know what's wrobg with me but i am feeling so fucking down. Why dont talk to me??? When WH told me you like this gurl, my world came crashing down. It feels so bad i want to cry so fucking badly. But you wont know all these would you? Why am i being like this??? I cant decribe how i feel but i just want you to come to me and tell me you like me too..... I need someone to hold on to i need you to be there for me please. I was so happy lookibg at you playing soccer. That match against _____ Wow i feel so fucking proud that you all won! If you are mine i would have jump right down the grand stand and hug you. But too bad your not but too bad your not. When you blocked the balls with your head i wanted to rub that sore spot for you.
WH just made me smile. I am so down recently i want to cry everytime i see you
2011年2月17日 星期四
2011年2月9日 星期三
Age gap
i only realized today that i am selfish. all along i think that i will suffer as i am the compromising to the younger guys mindset. i thought i can't like younger guys because of age gap because I'm childish i want a mature bf. never thought about the younger guys not liking an older me. wow shocks me. younger guys might not like the older me.
Thoughts
so this 2 weeks that i MIA-ed was fuck.
school re-opened, had orientation, jam and hop, talks, bonding, cvd planning etc etc
same old stuff i did last year. except that i got the bitch mode on so no one really dared to ask me to do anything. OGLs who knew me don't force me to play games and all. so yeap guess it's still okay. mass dance was the only thing i enjoyed. i went on stage with QY, we did the joke version had loud claps/cheers and fucking matthew had to say we are eliminated. i mean seriously? i don't mind the elimination but totally not from you. i would rather S cut me out instead of me. to me it feels like betrayal. we were qualified but why? why cut us out? i know it's a fucking small matter but i feel so fucking betrayed.
so jam and hop i was the band groupie. took photos for the bands, danced like fuck got fucking high. other than that i hated every moment of orientation. i made smoker friends. 1st day they come up and ask me if i smoke lol. they say i have clubber face sia. AGAIN. say i everyday the face like hangover fuck.
school this week was PW. for fuck we also have to do. it's fucking torturous and hell. my CT damn fucked up keep picking on me. whatever. she want to head on with me i see who win. i keep to myself. talk to only seniors in the class/school. only 2 JC1s i really talk to. apart from Danielle. she's the only good news to me seriously. so fucking glad she's in sch w me now. btw i am in malay dance. hahahaa surprising but i like.
school re-opened, had orientation, jam and hop, talks, bonding, cvd planning etc etc
same old stuff i did last year. except that i got the bitch mode on so no one really dared to ask me to do anything. OGLs who knew me don't force me to play games and all. so yeap guess it's still okay. mass dance was the only thing i enjoyed. i went on stage with QY, we did the joke version had loud claps/cheers and fucking matthew had to say we are eliminated. i mean seriously? i don't mind the elimination but totally not from you. i would rather S cut me out instead of me. to me it feels like betrayal. we were qualified but why? why cut us out? i know it's a fucking small matter but i feel so fucking betrayed.
so jam and hop i was the band groupie. took photos for the bands, danced like fuck got fucking high. other than that i hated every moment of orientation. i made smoker friends. 1st day they come up and ask me if i smoke lol. they say i have clubber face sia. AGAIN. say i everyday the face like hangover fuck.
school this week was PW. for fuck we also have to do. it's fucking torturous and hell. my CT damn fucked up keep picking on me. whatever. she want to head on with me i see who win. i keep to myself. talk to only seniors in the class/school. only 2 JC1s i really talk to. apart from Danielle. she's the only good news to me seriously. so fucking glad she's in sch w me now. btw i am in malay dance. hahahaa surprising but i like.
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