Spell O-v-e-r

so by the title i guess you guys already kind of know what's happening...

D and i stopped contacting each other. i can't bear to talk about it I'm so fucking heartbroken-ed and disappointed in this whole thing. i almost cried in public yesterday because of this it's so fucking shameful.

i thank my girls so much for comforting me along the way! RJ, Dan, Sherv. QH, Heidi, Rubiah
seriously without you guys i think i cant survive yesterday and today :( it hurts so much i felt like dying i wanna cross the road and get hit by a fucking car. i dont get why guys can treat girls like playthings? toys? and such a change of heart over a few days. why? why fucking do this to me? i trust people so easily i overlook everything else. i told myself he's a bad boy i must walk away yet i can't. i was so fucking deep inside this r/s before i knew it was too late. its fucking worse than last year w S. shorter time but stronger feelings and heartache.

i am so fucking depressed these few days i seriously thank my babies for helping me along the way.


good bye motherfuckers! i'm off to prepare for zirca!

Dilemma

I'm having a crisis right now lol it's nothing serious like someone dying or what but I am pretty shocked by what's happening these few days!


So yeap I'm having good progress with the piercer that di my strernum. Pretty surprising cause I never thought that this kind of things will ever happen to me! Like, it's o ly something I would dream about! He's been really sweet and all I like it so much hahhahaha ! Butthe thing is I feel lik such a slut cause i'll just end up breaking R's heart. Everything happens for a reason.... But i really don't like that I have to so this to someone else. Yes I like D more but I responded to R cause he was there first. Sigh it's so complicated I'm too tired to explain. I blew off R yesterday and went to meet D. Slut or what? Dan was with me I'm so glad hhaha D was so cute ^^ I seriously can't believe that he's even remotely interested in a girl like me. I cant say if it's the tattoos but he's so damn hot HAHA. And yeap I didnt feel like going out today with R so I blew him off again. But seriously he's showing me such bad attitude I can't stand it too _|_




Anyway Oscar signed me a line, with data plan. So I'm blogging from my iPhone! Hhaha bye bitches

Harry Potter Part 2.

so i watched harry potter yesterday with Smoove productions! or i should say, my bosses!

had dinner w family then rushed down to great world city. fucking ulu place i took cab from like CQ cost me 7bucks cb. should have cabbed from chinatown like nearer ah?
so many Smoove ppl there even though its a selected only sellers event. so i guess the total amount of ppl would be ridiculous! waited for YY and Reign to come. R's YY's boss so he's my boss's boss. HAHAHAH this boy damn funny added me on fb and asked me to go the event. (?!) hahha quite shocked to know I'm selected cause i only sold for like 1 event. so anyway i was suppose to meet R/YY at 8 but i only finished makeup at 8 hahhaa :P

met Jim (i keep thinking its Tim) and JunHui. both YY's sellers. so i guess we are the only 3 out of 10 plus sellers YY has? hhaahaha

i guess the movie's okay? like the ending is so not something that should come out from Harry Potter. totally spoil sia and the son don't even look like harry potter?????!!!! at least find someone who looks a lil bit more less bieber-ish???


Zirca after that got drunk and drunk text ppl sorryyyyy mannnnn!
today wake up YY texted me such a long msg i thought i was still drunk HAHAHA
bye bitches' im going online shopping!

RJ's dream

so RJ had this dream it was so funny i was laughing on the train with people staring at me cause it was just so damn funny!!!!!

so this is the dream:

she dreamt that me and her quarreled cause i got fucked by some random guy and it was my first so she got damn mad at me trying to talk some sense into me but i was too drunk/pissed to understand her or listen to her. she was over protective of me and i just didn't care. she said ben was there and she was so angry at him cause she asked him to stop me but he was too GAY to do it. yep her exact words. too GAY hahahahah i swear to god fucking laughing la cb this girl text until like this! then she said like i got angry at her trying to correct me so i said like "take back what's yours and give back what's mine" WTF TOTALLY!!!! swear to god fucking laughing + shivering on the train already! so she said i gave her back the red skirt and she gave me back my heels HAHAHAHAH ROFLLLLLLL



funny or what man my babes dream of this kind of dream! ^^ chill babe we wont ever have this kind of quarrels!! im still thinking about Dwayne though, he's so fucking hot i cannot take it lei sian

Sternum Piercing

hi everybody i pierced my sternum HAHAHAHAHA


it was an impromptu decision yesterday! was alone in sch cause Dan baby and qihong didn't come sch. at least i have jeesoo~
physics was joke la ruijing was just annoying me all the way, saying like my lesbian kissing photos very turn on and guys all have fantasies of having a 3some with lesbians/bisexuals(aka me)
then adriel joined in and said like oohhhh sonia got do bj for guys. it was fucking loud and the row in front of us were like laughing/snickering and all cb sia adriel! 2 of them then proceeded to talk about flavors of condoms etc. that's just how gross my friends are in sch.

anyway took class photos, had a change this year we had to wear ties FML i haven't touch a tie since Beatty times HAHAAHAH it was stupid la i had no one really close in class except maybe jeesoo? leon borrowed my tie for his soccer photo hahahah inside joke!

waited till 1.30 before we can leave sch, and i was lazing around in the library w weihao julie and jeesoo. yohan treated me lunch ( or i extorted from him)


finally finally 1.30 and i left sch to meet Dan and Jason!~~~~ ^^ usual stuffs and Dan tempted me to skip the rest of my lessons HAAHAHHA so i did after some persuasion! was walking back to sch when i saw Stella crying :( that bitch made her cry!
got my bag back and we went to cityhall while stella went home! i was persuading Dan to get a tongue piercing cause she has been wanting to do it for a long time but had oral etc so finally she decided and we went peninsular! we specially avoided the escalator lol cause her ex was working nearby ehheheeh


walked around a few shops before we decided on 1st Tattoo Studio! Dwayne was there and he pierced her. within like. 5mins HHAHAHA i still remember when me and RJ pierced it took like 15mins cause RJ wanted to back out.
after that Dan was like " oi babe go pierce something too i don't wanna be alone" HAHAAH totally random right?! so i did the sternum since i have been thinking about it and Jason lend me $70 to do it! yes it's $70 bucks and it hurts like a bitch! only promising thing out of the piercing experience is that Dwayne is FUCKING CUTE. i know i sound bimbo-ish and all but HAHAHA even Dan agrees( which is rare) and omg hahaahahh we're so going back to get tattoos from him ^^


desert time and home soon after. so goddamn shagged i slept for 2 hours hahaah dad's not happy!
goodbye bitches i'm gng out!

Ipad

Blogging from iPad now hahahahaha ^^ stella's :)


So anyway Sonia is a dirty dirty girl went to butter on sat and made out with 5 different guys hahahhaah but it was damn fun I miss it,,, because of blocks I have stopped clubbing for over 3 weeks I guess??? Anyway I bought a new pair of shoe , JC foxy!! The one in gold! still aiming for VW inspired wing wedges, Fendi wedges, JC boots and more more moreeeeee!!!




Butter w Dan and RJ, we went town first to get my stud ,dinner and bel rings HaHah it was in a spur of moment that Dan suggested we take it lol!! Been 3 4 years since I last took it la hahahhaah then we went to vivo to meet Gary ^^ miss my bro so much! He was shocked by me though, totally shock like he cannot get over it :((((( then to esplanade butter to get lockers.. Next to boat quay for pre drinks. Dan was high by the time she went in fash!!!! Danced frenched and Jason came down after his NDP, w vodkaaaaaaa~~~~ met new friends etc got even higher, frenched w even more guys haahahah and I saw Paul twohill....


After that slacked a little while, went back Jason's house with Dan and Joshua!!! Bathed and talked hahahhaah I love magnum la! Slept and uh hm we 4 did naughty things ^^
Home the next day fuciing hangoverrrrr slept mostly throughout the whole day!





Anyway having dinner at toy with marveen! Long time no see small boy sehhhh someone going to Australia for pilot course uhhhh!!!!!!!

So, blogging now during chemistry class! I think my results are so so, but definitely much much better than last year! It's not really good compared to the other seniors, but better than what I use to get last year! Getting back GP Later I guess.


I cried in sch yst when I got back my physics paper. I really thought I could get an A but only a C in the end. So damn fucking disappointed in myself and all Like every other seniors I know, they got an A. And they are those who got worse results than me last year. Not saying they aren't good, but I put in a lot of effort too. Lots of ppl thought I could get an A too. Sigh life's bad :(

What am I doing???? Pining for some lousy guy who's far younger than what I would have preferred and also giving me hot and cold treatment. Don't feel like doing much about him alr. If he don't text me today Abt USS on sat, that's it! Swear to god I'm fucking over guys. ESP younger guys




Had been texting Marv for 2 days, and I really appreciate him encouraging me and all... He sent mr this text :
" Eh eh eh don't cry!! I know it feels like a total waste of time and effort to give your all for something but end up not getting the expected results, but it happens! We're not perfect and mistakes are bound to happen. You just gotta find out what went wrong and correct the situation before it goes out of hand  and this is only what? Mid years? There's still your promos to go! :) still got many more tests right? Don't give up k? Find out the reason why. Maybe it's the way you study or ans the question! Cheer up "

Dan Felicia Daphne were also consoling me sch. It Was embarrassing to cry in sch but whatever I was in the mood and the above mentioned guy wasnt replying me  so yep! Szy too, for texting me and all <3

shoes

oh and i just bought a pair of shoes HAHAHAHAHA.

AGAIN. habits die hard

Haitus

its been almost 4 months since i last blogged. can't say i was really bothered to but yeap i hope i'm back for good!


these few months was full of ups and downs, just 2 weeks ago dad took me to a shopping spree and i bought stuffs over hundreds of dollars and he didn't say a single thing. but just 2 days later he screamed at me for having a handphone bill that was over by $30 bucks. totally WTF hahahah

so he confiscated my phone and sim card, and wanted to terminate the line. but turns out there's this penalty $ thingy. long story cut short= the line's not canceled yet.


since i am too anxious and impatient, i got CK to buy me a sim card w new no. and everything. he's such a sweetheart, paid for my sim <333 seriously only best friends do that (hahaah can't say szy would be willing to though!)





went out to CQ to find RJ and Dan yesterday night. RJ's friends were coming but they were too late and i left to Club SOUL. met boss, got tickets and everything. home since i'm a fucking curfew kid now. pictures soon~