Spell O-v-e-r

so by the title i guess you guys already kind of know what's happening...

D and i stopped contacting each other. i can't bear to talk about it I'm so fucking heartbroken-ed and disappointed in this whole thing. i almost cried in public yesterday because of this it's so fucking shameful.

i thank my girls so much for comforting me along the way! RJ, Dan, Sherv. QH, Heidi, Rubiah
seriously without you guys i think i cant survive yesterday and today :( it hurts so much i felt like dying i wanna cross the road and get hit by a fucking car. i dont get why guys can treat girls like playthings? toys? and such a change of heart over a few days. why? why fucking do this to me? i trust people so easily i overlook everything else. i told myself he's a bad boy i must walk away yet i can't. i was so fucking deep inside this r/s before i knew it was too late. its fucking worse than last year w S. shorter time but stronger feelings and heartache.

i am so fucking depressed these few days i seriously thank my babies for helping me along the way.


good bye motherfuckers! i'm off to prepare for zirca!